Never Thought I Would Be Here

Here I am running my 2ed 5k.  

12 weeks ago I started a new journey, I signed up for Biggest Loosers 3 in my home town at the rec center. I knew there were going to be some major workout, but I really didn't know what I was in for.  

There were team work out, and some where you did your own.  Some of the best was a work out called Tabata.  Yes there were days were I could hardly walk because my legs hurt so bad, but it was the good pain.  

I even learned how to eat differently.  I started to use my google chrome and downloaded the kindle reader.  I couldn't believe how many free cook books are on amazon!  I started down loading everyone I could find.  Some times I would take an Idea from one or another, and other times I would just try and make something that was "better" for you.  My family is suffering along with me. 

In the past 12 weeks I have lost 19 pounds and came in 9th place for the females!  I never would have thought this was possible!  Especially after having my spinal surgery and not being able to do a lot of the work outs.

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I am starting a weight loss program at my local rec center.  I have also found out about Herbalife weight loss shakes.  Before Christmas I started taking the shakes and lost over 7 pounds and almost 10 inches.  

Well the holidays are over and it is time to get back on track!  I have started selling the products as well as take them!  I am so excited to use them, that I want to be able to share this with everyone.

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Migraines

So for the past three months I have been suffering from migraines.  I have been to my family doctor, the ER and to my new favorite person, my Neurologist Dr. Jenkyns.

After doing the normal doctor visit things like your temp, BP and weight, we sat down and talked about what was going on.

I explained to him where the pain was and what it was like.  I have most of the pain right in the back of my head with some in my neck.  I also have numbing in my arms and legs.

I walked out with some new meds to try with the understanding that if they didn't work with in 2 days to call him and let him know and he will give me something else.  That med works that quick, for the people it works on...

I wasn't that lucky.  I called back telling him, it didn't work and he gave me something else to try.  Well after a week on that, this one didn't work either.

So he called me back in to the office.  We talked more about how I was a cheerleader and had some neck trauma when the girls would land on my head, and also that I was in a car accident and might have had whiplash..

So we agreed that I would go in for 3 different MRI's.  One of my neck, one of my head, and one of my head with the contrast that shows off the blood vessels more.  I explained to him that I don't like MRI's because I am claustrophobic.  So the doctor wrote me a script for a couple valume to relax me while I was in the MRI..

The day of the MRI I remembered that you could bring in a cd to listen to.  My mom was with me because I needed a driver, and I grabbed one of my favorite cds that she had.  Steve Miller Band.  They put headphones on you and you get to crank out to the music.  Let me tell you how much that helped!!!  The guys that were doing the scan kept speaking to me, telling me "the next scan is 3 minutes, the next scan is 5 minutes"  They made is so relaxing for me.

So a few days later I went back to the Doc to get the results.  My brain looks good, but I have a small part of my neck where the CSF is pinched, not bad enough to cause anything though..  They are thinking that I have some scare tissue on my spinal cord and nerves branching off.

This week I am going in for a C-2 left sided spinal block to see if it is the nerves.  I will have to sit there for a couple hours and if it help I will be set up with the surgeon and will have spinal surgery done.

At this point I just want it to be fixed and if it means surgery then that's what I will do.  I am just praying for an answer and an end to this pain.

Down but not out.

So yet again we find ourselves in a tight spot.  I am now "on hold" with work.  I work for an agency that sends me to the ECU at a local hospital.  Well the Director of Nursing decided to go agency free, so there goes my job.  I am now looking at getting out of the medical field for something that is more reliable.  I have worked for 3 different agency's this year, all promising things that I never saw.  I have lost so much time and money by not just sticking it out at a factory or something else.

So I am looking around and applying at everything I can find.  The problem with living in a small town is that there isn't much around.  I applied for everything from Home Depot to welding jobs.

We have had a very rough last year and a half, but we have stuck together and will do what ever we have to do to make it.

I am also looking at FINALLY graduating from college.  It has been a very long 3 years, but I have the two classes I am taking now, and two more after them!  I am so excited to have that Degree in my hands.
I am debating on going for my BS or just taking a break for now and see what happens.

Time will tell I guess..

Marriage

【 Marriage 】
「When I got home that ni...ght as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes..

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.
— At least, in the eyes of our son — I’m a loving husband...

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

Blogging subjects and reviews..

Do you do reviews for company's?  I have always wondered how you get in touch with them to do a review for them.  Something like Ragu or Cheerios.  I have done mini reviews for some products off tomoson.com but nothing for a major company. 

I would love to get up to that level some day (sooner then later), but without doing blogs everyday, I feel it will be later. 

Soon I will be working a full time job, and can cut down to just one.  I am still in school full time and working out at the rec center in town.  My girls are also cheerleading and in girl scouts.  What a busy week we have.  In fact I should be doing more of my home work right now, but I am taking a break to write this, then back to the math...

It isn't that I don't have anything to write about, and I really could take 10 minutes and update this every night.  My thing is where do you get different subjects about what you are going to blog about, and how do you make money doing them?  I have tried to look it up and am confused about it.  I know it isn't enough to live off of, but hey every little bit extra does help.  Is there a place you can sign up for the big co. to blog for them? 

I'm not really worried about the whole money thing, just a question.  But really, where do you come up with the different subjects to blog about.  After about a week, I sit here and think, "what can I write about that I didn't say two days ago?"